Saturday, April 26, 2008

Leader and Failure

Former President of India APJ Abdul Kalam at Wharton India Economic forum , Philadelphia, March 22,2008

Question: Could you give an example, from your own experience, of how leaders should manage failure?

Kalam:

“Let me tell you about my experience. In 1973 I became the project director of India’s satellite launch vehicle program, commonly called the SLV-3. Our goal was to put India’s “Rohini” satellite into orbit by 1980. I was given funds and human resources — but was told clearly that by 1980 we had to launch the satellite into space. Thousands of people worked together in scientific and technical teams towards that goal..

By 1979 — I think the month was August — we thought we were ready. As the project director, I went to the control center for the launch. At four minutes before the satellite launch, the computer began to go through the checklist of items that needed to be checked.. One minute later, the computer program put the launch on hold; the display showed that some control components were not in order. My experts — I had four or five of them with me — told me not to worry; they had done their calculations and there was enough reserve fuel. So I bypassed the computer, switched to manual mode, and launched the rocket. In the first stage, everything worked fine. In the second stage, a problem developed. Instead of the satellite going into orbit, the whole rocket system plunged into the Bay of Bengal. It was a big failure.

That day, the chairman of the Indian Space Research Organization, Prof. Satish Dhawan, had called a press conference. The launch was at 7:00 am, and the press conference — where journalists from around the world were present — was at 7:45 am at ISRO’s satellite launch range in Sriharikota [in Andhra Pradesh in southern India]. Prof. Dhawan, the leader of the organization, conducted the press conference himself. He took responsibility for the failure — he said that the team had worked very hard, but that it needed more technological support. He assured the media that in another year, the team would definitely succeed. Now, I was the project director, and it was my failure, but instead, he took responsibility for the failure as chairman of the organization.

The next year, in July 1980, we tried again to launch the satellite — and this time we succeeded. The whole nation was jubilant. Again, there was a press conference. Prof. Dhawan called me aside and told me, “You conduct the press conference today.”

I learned a very important lesson that day. When failure occurred, the leader of the organization owned that failure. When success came, he gave it to his team. The best management lesson I have learned did not come to me from reading a book; it came from that experience.”

Posting again.. So that i dont forget. :)

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Fwd. content, copied from successinlife.in


Only the ego can be touched. It is very touchy. If
somebody just looks at you in a certain way, it is
touched. He has not done anything. If somebody smiles
a little, it is touched; if somebody just turns his
head and does not look at you, it is touched. It is
very touchy. It is like a wound, always open, green.
You touch it and the pain arises. A single word, a
single gesture — the other may not even be aware of
what he has done to you, but he has touched it.

And you always think the other is responsible, that he
has wounded you. No, you carry your wound. With the
ego your whole being is a wound. And you carry it
around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is
positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged
in safeguarding his own wound. Who has got the energy?
But still it happens, because you are so ready to be
wounded, so ready, just waiting on the brink for
anything.

You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? — because there
is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is
healthy, healed, whole. This word ‘whole’ is
beautiful. The word ‘heal’ comes from ‘whole’, and the
word ‘holy’ also comes from ‘whole’. He is whole,
healed, holy.

Be aware of your wound. Don’t help it to grow, let it
be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to
the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will
heal — with no head there is no wound. Live a
headless life. Move as a total being, and accept
things.

Just for twenty-four hours, try it — total
acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you,
accept it, don’t react, and see what happens. Suddenly
you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have
not felt before. Somebody insults you: you feel weak,
you feel disturbed, you start thinking of how to get
your revenge. That man has hooked you, and now you
will move round and round. For days, nights, months,
even years, you will not be able to sleep, you will
have bad dreams. People can waste their whole life
over a small thing, just because someone insulted
them.

Just look back into your past and you will remember a
few things. You were a small child and the teacher in
the class called you an idiot, and you still remember
it and you feel resentment. Your father said
something. Your parents have forgotten, and even if
you remind them, they will not be able to remember it.
Your mother looked at you in a certain way and since
then the wound has been there. And it is still open,
fresh; if anybody touches it, you will explode.

Don’t help this wound to grow. Don’t make this wound
your soul. Go to the roots, be with the whole. For
twenty-four hours, just twenty-four hours, try not to
react, not to reject, whatsoever happens.

If someone pushes you and you fall to the ground –
fall! Then get up and go home. Don’t do anything about
it. If somebody hits you, bow down your head, accept
it with gratitude. Go home, don’t do anything, just
for twenty-four hours. And you will know a new upsurge
of energy that you have never known before, a new
vitality arising from the roots. And once you know it,
once you have tasted it, your life will be different.
Then you will laugh at all the foolish things you have
been doing, at all the resentments, reactions,
revenges, with which you have been destroying
yourself.

Nobody else can destroy you except you; nobody else
can save you except you. ”

Friday, April 25, 2008

Performance .....

Yesterday, In the company, I was forced to sign a letter which says that my performance is not good and the company may terminate my service in next 7 days, if my performance is not upto a satisfactory mark.

I was hurted and was only depressed, but didnt expressed, because i was not alone, 3 Team Leaders out of 6, all the trainees and 7-8 programmers also were forced to sign the same doc, out of total of 80 programmers in company.
How are trainees supposed to give performance. ???

The management is just like ......... ( i dont want to use the exact word ;) ).
The person who dreamt to bring their CBS upto maximum level is not performing....

I will see, who is performing then.....

these were the feelings i expressed then.. :


Just before today I was in the company of few,
whom I respected and admired true,

I was reporting to seniors,who were like fathers,
hard to say but true,

I worked with dedication,
with enthusiasm and feeling just like you,

I began to enjoy the coding,
thinking globally just like you,

Suddenly I am different, non-performing and waste,
like none of you,

Doesnt it hurts when you are blamed,
Or, it is that I am different from you ????

Oh My Lord give me the strength,
to bear the SHAME which I cant argue....

No, I wont say a word,
for the one who is seeing all this is silent just like you,

Just before today i was in the company of few,
whom I respected and admired true.................................................

Friday, April 18, 2008

Break Out.

The desire of getting certified(scjp) is getting me to loose at most of fronts...

First of all the high expectation that i should get 3-4 different certifications as soon as possible is wrong, and then the ground reality that i am not studying for at least 15 mins in a day,

with the mental pressure daily building up, only one sound comes from mind, i should leave all the things, aim is too high and ground reality is nothing.

Even though i build the mood and go for study, the external factors (like work at home, office, any one calls, anything... it could be just anything and the flow breaks even before it starts.)

and then when i got the time when i am alone, only frustration is left to deal with.

Being a ordinary person is OK, no probs, but why do i desire for being a person with some additional qualities, when ground reality is that i am such a .....................................
, in short nothing. Just one - two failures at school time, one-two failures at college time and seeing the way things are going, very sooner it would one-two failures in..........

Just searching for the self, i am unable to decide to which category i belong.

Never happy with office-mates, as their behavior at most of time is not same as of mine.
But also , then i am no different from them, because we have formed a group, and i am unable to isolate myself.


cant share with anyone, coz unable to decide what is to be shared / discussed.

if the person dont knows what the problem is, how can he knows the solution. ?

Are my desires wrong ?

or its just that every one aspires to be best, has got the ideas, but only few of them are able to implement them truly, and rest, same like me wander from here and there, in search of happiness, which cant be ever found. ............................

or is it that, i am given a good mind but hell like situations, in which i am just struggling and failing, coz my own thoughts, desires are not matching my work.... >????

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Self Creation-2

जब चलना शुरू किया तब अकेले थे,
आज मेरे साथ एक कारवां है,
जब आंखें खोली तोह सिर्फ़ रौशनी थी,
आज रंगों भरा संसार है,
ख़ुद को देखूं तो तनहा जल की बूँद हूँ,
पर अपने आस पास देखूं तो अनंत सागर का साथी हूँ,
कुछ समय पहले कोई इच्छा न थी मन मैं,
आज सपनो मी भी चाहतों का भंडार है,

कुछ समय पहले नही चल पता था मैं,
आज मेरी अलग रफ्तार है,

कुछ समय पहले कुछ नही था आज के मुकाबले,
आज फिर भी उस्सी समय के लिए दिल बेकरार है।

-- Written in lecture of E-Commerce in seventh sem, in the class in front of lecturer, sitting on front seat.............

kya din they ;)

just got old register today.(safai nahi chal rahi, table pe aise hi dhoond toh kuch raha tha, just yeh mil gaya.)

Monday, April 14, 2008

Bitte Ice cream

papa ghar aaye hue hain,
and dii and madhav (MY bhanja) bhi.

papa ki special request pe kaha gaya, aaj ice-cream party ho jaye.
such keh raha hoon yaar, it was just like i wanted to do good.

but............................. ab kismat hi aisi hai...
kuch achcha hone se pehle kuch bura bhi toh hona cahiye.
:(

anyways,
ice cream me kuch alag karne ki sochi, socha different flavor lenge, ab mujhe kya pata tha, shopkeeper se bhi puch liya, usne bhi kaha, yeh flavor achcha hai...

i took amul 's rajbhog, ice-cream me naya aaya tha shayad.

idea flopped and mummy ne toh wo taang keenchi, isse achcha toh hota tu nahi lata,
cone hi le aata....
and all....

Y it happens with me only....

and as again ...

I hate to give justifications.

Truly speaking i dint knew how these all taste. koi dibba dekh ke thodi pata chalega.


Anyways, sorry for all ....................... i know writing here doesnt mean to any one, nothing gonna change............................. :(

These are really golden days.....
really........................ Nothing goin in my favor. :(

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Ups and downs.

Everything was fine and then suddenly d dream breaks..
All d good things that i did ever were hidden like they never existed.

My Weakness was exploited in a manner that it would continue until I am totally down.
D person on fornt was continuously teasing, hurting me and me....

defenceless, first tried to absorb all
but when later failed,
bursted out all... depressed, hurted, crying like baby.

Y do i need to give justification. I hate that.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Strange things...

The way things happened there , I am amazed, amused and just.. what to say more.
My expression is like mouth little opened, some expressions changed and inside of me,
thought process goes like : Oh My god.. This........................

Some Times you are just impressed by mere dedication and the feelings..
I guess same happened with me, although i know, the things are going to change very soon.

Though i wish, things may last forever....
Cant the time be stopped. ?
Cant i be in the company of a person little bit more... ?

Cant i just ............

Friday, April 11, 2008

Creations... number 1

थके थके से कदम  फिर भी चले जा रहे हैं,
बुझे  बुझे  से  मन फिर भी मुस्कुराये जा रहे हैं !

होता तो नही कोई अपना यहाँ,
फिर भी देखो गैरों से हम निभाए जा रहे हैं.........

Attractions.

though very strange, but yet being true, I admit that i am trapped in the web of attraction.
I am unable to decide, what is in her that is attracting me, but the more i am avoiding, the more i guess i am getting into it.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Broken Link

From 6th april, i was going daily with swamiji for a morning walk in 5.30 am morning. Today, however i didnt went :( .
Continuity was never with me, be it any work. I knew this, but i dint thought all things would happen this way. I was just feeling tired. It was not that I did not wake, mother wake up today, and she tried all the stuff to wake me. :) but i was not feeling able.

hmm... happens at times.. what to write more. ?

Preparations have started for a paper, but they are not going right way. Infact games playing(Rise of nations) demand too much energy and time from me. I am trying to avoid but the attraction and passion is so much........................

Monday, April 7, 2008

Morning Walk

And so does it begin.
After too much of avoidance, from 7th april 2008 again the morning walk begins. Hindu nav-varsh me dusre din se subah subah morning walk to start kari, swamiji ke saath me,
continue kab tak rahegi iska mujhe doubt hi hai. ;)

Need to mujhe bhi lag rahi thi, coz exercise kuch hoti nahi, and body pc pe baithe baith bigadti ja rahi thi....