Lacking confidence

One of key points to successfully code/ write a program fast and efficiently is the self-confidence.

Saying goes --> " god helps those who help themselves".

Because of some less self - confidence and trapped in the false belief of getting help by colleagues,
I was not doing good coding in company. ( as per my own satisfactory level)

But from now on, i guess i have got the problem.

Would try to be self -dependent and confident...

Fwd. content, copied from successinlife.in


Only the ego can be touched. It is very touchy. If
somebody just looks at you in a certain way, it is
touched. He has not done anything. If somebody smiles
a little, it is touched; if somebody just turns his
head and does not look at you, it is touched. It is
very touchy. It is like a wound, always open, green.
You touch it and the pain arises. A single word, a
single gesture — the other may not even be aware of
what he has done to you, but he has touched it.

And you always think the other is responsible, that he
has wounded you. No, you carry your wound. With the
ego your whole being is a wound. And you carry it
around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is
positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged
in safeguarding his own wound. Who has got the energy?
But still it happens, because you are so ready to be
wounded, so ready, just waiting on the brink for
anything.

You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? — because there
is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is
healthy, healed, whole. This word ‘whole’ is
beautiful. The word ‘heal’ comes from ‘whole’, and the
word ‘holy’ also comes from ‘whole’. He is whole,
healed, holy.

Be aware of your wound. Don’t help it to grow, let it
be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to
the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will
heal — with no head there is no wound. Live a
headless life. Move as a total being, and accept
things.

Just for twenty-four hours, try it — total
acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you,
accept it, don’t react, and see what happens. Suddenly
you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have
not felt before. Somebody insults you: you feel weak,
you feel disturbed, you start thinking of how to get
your revenge. That man has hooked you, and now you
will move round and round. For days, nights, months,
even years, you will not be able to sleep, you will
have bad dreams. People can waste their whole life
over a small thing, just because someone insulted
them.

Just look back into your past and you will remember a
few things. You were a small child and the teacher in
the class called you an idiot, and you still remember
it and you feel resentment. Your father said
something. Your parents have forgotten, and even if
you remind them, they will not be able to remember it.
Your mother looked at you in a certain way and since
then the wound has been there. And it is still open,
fresh; if anybody touches it, you will explode.

Don’t help this wound to grow. Don’t make this wound
your soul. Go to the roots, be with the whole. For
twenty-four hours, just twenty-four hours, try not to
react, not to reject, whatsoever happens.

If someone pushes you and you fall to the ground –
fall! Then get up and go home. Don’t do anything about
it. If somebody hits you, bow down your head, accept
it with gratitude. Go home, don’t do anything, just
for twenty-four hours. And you will know a new upsurge
of energy that you have never known before, a new
vitality arising from the roots. And once you know it,
once you have tasted it, your life will be different.
Then you will laugh at all the foolish things you have
been doing, at all the resentments, reactions,
revenges, with which you have been destroying
yourself.

Nobody else can destroy you except you; nobody else
can save you except you. ”

The Morning Effects.

In the month of december , when temprature is around 10-12'c , now who wants to come out of bed and go outside.....
Same with me...
But my luck..... had to move outside, as father was going to sikar, so i had to drop him till bus-stand.
It was not a new thing for me, coz from the day father was transferred to sikar, i have to drop him till bus stand, if he comes to jaipur.
I thought this time to take camera and shoot if anything worth......

As the saying goes, ships are best safe in the harbor, but they are not meant for it,
I too realised the morning time before sun-rise if spent on bed is wasted, there is no use of it for me.(on bed).

I took out the camera on return journey, cause we were in hurry at the time of going to bus stand.
The first thing attracted me was the pigeons, on the middle of road.On the divider , some people feed them.

A worth looking look. The way many of these were gathered and eating, that attracted me.


After that sun rise was the prime attraction....

I missed the perfect shot though... coz because of trees, the original orange sun just rising from the mountain had moved to somewhat higher level. [:(]

But still i got something to shoot. [:)]

Problem : Direction Less

Today 's youth have a common problem.

Direction Less thinking / working.
NO donuts, if same is with me.

I am interested in numerology / astrology / palmistry / vaastu-shastra.
Along with,
daily have to keep updated self about latest trends and technologies....

But what happens really is ....
one day the insights and the urge is so strong that reading articles about palmistry starts....
and the whole month is spent, forgetting that reading.
(this is because, no revisions, no further study).

The urge and attitude is strong....

To be this.
To be that.
To do this.

But the effectiveness is not there, thanks to easy attraction - shifting.

Only solution to this, is that one should first perfect one thing, before even thinking about the other.

But then our minds are not so easy to control.
Are they ??????????????????

Irregularity

I admit i am a irregular person @ times...
But here, reality is thoughts just come to my mind when i am not online.

Thus, what i should write is gone in my thinking,
and moreover when i am online, orkut/ gtalk / yahoo messenger just makes sure that even i logged on to blogger, i dont write anything.

However, every time i takes a pledge sort of inside, from now regular postings.....

There are so much to share.....

And infact every common man has with him lots of tips/ tricks / experiences , that if shared, would save other's lots of time and value.

So would try to be regular from now...... (may be writing here may have some effect. [;)] )

Reward of Ignorance (19th november office)

Today in office, i observed the power of ignorance...

I felt my colleague feeling happy to explaining things, that i already knew. [;)]
The way he was explaining things to me,
it felt like he was feeling very happy....

I may have cut the sentence abruptly by saying, haan haan i know.
but something prompted me to hear .....

i was in a way proved foolish by not knowing a basic thing of programming world...

Later i realised that merely by listening to something that i already knew, i dint wasted my time( @ least...... )

Gold of Scraps : Collection of Self-Thoughts

1. Jo majak udda rahe hain, wo khud hi majak banenge.

2. " All of us are great , but we loose our greatness by doing some mistakes...
While others gain greatness by correcting those........ "

-- So my this own thought says that its just a matter of work done @ a instant which denotes our character.....
Things go fine and you are great...
"-- Please comment, what your ideas are for this thought "

3. Always be continue, otherwise your continuity will come to end....

4. Think good, do better.. and you would be called as best.

5. " A smile on your face looks like moon shining on space "

6. The hardest thing is to set your aim and be continue on it.
The easiest thing is to get it.

7. If you reply by smiling, it wont cost you anything....

But doing so would make you feel better, and magnitude of your name would be good.

8. Jyada buk - buk ka koi fayda nahi hai, chup rehna bhi seekho...

-- All these written by me when i was in 9th class. These are original, may lack @ time maturity,
yet clearly tell the attitude one should try to keep.

6th november 12:45 am

Many of the defects or flaws of human mistakes comes so easily......our mind is so susceptible to blunders, that one can hardly detect, whether the behavior he is showing is original one or a made-up one.

For e.g., i have closely observed persons, side-tracked / jealous by batchmate's success.
This is the vulnerability of mind... isnt it.. ?????

Your neighbor may be performing well, may be so he got better things...
but that is not permanent... is it ?
Then why a human mind just compares himself to other.. ???
in every walk/ front of life......

There comes the comparison....
My parents are so and so... Others have so and so...(comparison)

I got so and so marks..... My friend always have so and so marks.... why me.. ???? (comparison)

I have been working here... with so & so.... My friends... One got there.. another got there....
why me here... ....... (comparison)....

Can we just leave the comparison.. for today.... ???????????????????

NO comparisons for today....
Accept life in all forms as it is in its true sense............
And you would be astonished by the results.....

5th november morning 1 am.

continuing the diary...
In the deepest ocean,
seeing the blackiest sky,
Travelling the largest way,
I wonder why........................................
Darkness around the star,
sadness around the guy,
Seeing the poorest people,
I wonder why........................................
Failures occur to everyone,
Life keeps on moving,
But failing the easiest tests,
I wonder why........................................
Every one has heart,
every one cares,
Still seeing the broken heart,
I wonder why........................................
Dancing is joy,
Dancing is easy,
Still my hesitation and I never dance,
I wonder why.......................................
He loves her,
she loves him,
Still the cruelty of words and separation of two hearts,
I wonder why........................................
One wants to abide by rules,
Two wants to abide by  rules,
Still one breaks the rule for a brief moment of joy,
I wonder why........................................
To err is human,
to forgive is human,
Still only reminder of errors and forgetting to forgive,
I wonder why........................................
A is A,
B is B,
Still A wants to B and B wants to A,
I wonder why.......................................

Today i observed...

" At times in life we are so puzzled & mixed up in little things, that efficiency degrades... "
If we don't just fine the blade, it tends to cut lesser......

So a person should check himself for the upgradations... [;)]

23 october.(Morning).

In the morning of 23rd October, i am writing about some of the thoughts that affected yesterday.

Once i thought it is better to be a king in small company, then to be a employee with lesser powers in big company.

but me doubting my own thought.
If you are in MNC, or any big players of market, you have other advantages, that a small company can't offer.

Then what is correct approach. ??? confused............

May be someday some one would clear my doubt or i will discover the answer by myself.

14th October 2007

Today, on 14th of October 2007, i just thought to maintain a daily diary sort of blog.


This is done to ensure :
1. if any constructive ideas come in my mind, they just dont get away.
2. my daily performance goes to a level.
3. i daily do something to write..... [;)] may be that things improve....


so, readers... ( if any) lets just start.

-- Abhishek