self creation- 7

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आखें भले ही कुछ कहती हो , जुबान पे शब्द आने नहीं देता,
क्या जादू है ये की अपनों को अपना कहने से ही जैसे रोक देता !!!

उठती है दिल से आवाज कई, लेकिन सब जैसे सामने उनको देखते ही कहीं दब सी जाती है ,
क्या जादू है ये जो बार बार कहता है मन वो भी कहने से  जैसे रोक देता !!!

दूरी नहीं होती कोई अगर बात कह दी जाती पहले ही,
क्या जादू है ये की कोई दूरी ना होते हुए भी बार बार दूरी बढ़ाते ही जाता ....


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EW : aankhein kuch bhale hi kehti ho, juban pe shabd aane nahi deta,
       kya jadoo hai yeh ki apano ko apna kehne se hi jaise rok deta !!!

EW : uthti hai dil se aawaj kayi, lekin sab jaise samne unko dekhte hi kahin dab si jati hai,
        kya jadoo hai yeh ki jo baar baar kehta hai mann wo bhi kehne se rok deta !!!
EW : duri nahi hoti koi agar baat keh di jati pehle hi,
 ya jadoo hai yeh ki koi duri na hote hue bhi baar baar duri badhaate hi jata ...




EV: Whatever eyes may say, it stops the words to come out,
      What is this magic, which stops me to say someone as 'us'  !!!!

EV: Many words come from inside of the heart, but all those are suppressed on seeing you in front of me!!
       What is this magic , which stops heart from saying it, whatever it is saying repeatedly !!!

EV : (Under updations) *
dil kahan samaj aur duniya ke kayde dekhta hai,
kya jadoo hai yeh ki baar baar dil ko bhi samjha jaise rok deta hai....

self creation - 6

aise bhi din aate hai is jindagi me jab, din ka ujala bhi dhundla sa dikhai
deta hai!!!

aise bhi din aate hai is jindagi me jab, doston ki baatein bhi
ansune sabdon se lagte hain!!!!

aise bhi din aate hai is jindagi me jab, kisi se mil kar bhi
akelapan sa lagta hai!!!!

aise bhi din aate hai is jindagi me jab, muskurane ke liye bhi
bahana dhundhna padta hai!!!

aise bhi din aate hai is jidagi me jab, baat karne ka mann
hote hue bhi chup rehna padta hai!!!

aise bhi din aate hai is jidagi me jab ................


(still under updation )

24 done, 25th to go !!!

It was my 24th bday yesterday ...
Now finally converting into a fully grown up man... [:d]

There were celebrations, wishes, but I didnt felt much, many things were log compared to what happens every year....

Anyways, I thanked many persons for the bday wishes by :

aapki duaon ka asar hai,
bhagvad kripa se sab kushal hai,
doston ka saath aur badon ka ashirvaad,
aur kuch nahi chaiye bus is ek wish ke baad...

How.. ?

How the flowing wind be stopped ?
How the determination of a man be tested ?
How the innocence of a child be proved.. ?
How can one be silent when the whole body is so communicative.... ?????
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How can a men prove his faithfulness ???
How can a mother be so hard yet so caring. ?
How can a seed grow in so adversity ??
How can a love be so selfish, yet so supportive. ???

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How can the teacher teach so much when there is no interest ?
How can one know when there is no limit to knowledge ?
How can one trust when there is no way to guarantee it. ?

Well, Communicative .. ???

Nowadays I am not stage-feared, although I remember a incident of my school days, when while participating in a
inter-school debate competition, I trembled, and out of fear,panic and nervousness, I talked too fast for a person to understand.
What i did, I dont know, but I hear feedbacks,It was a over-sped voice,"Son, you had a good material, but you should
present it also very well, you should speak in stage in audible form.You were faster then too fast... :) "
Many years have passed since then, but still, whenever I am on stage, this incident comes to my mind,
and a firmness comes from within, you have to speak good, no matter what.
At times,the wish to speak well make me over conscious also...............
...........
Ok now back to present scenario, its me again, going over the stage.
Voilla, now I am on the mike, starting words were already prepared.
The salutations, greetings, first line and then the topic name, it came as planned, perfect !!!!!!

And then, the things began..........
When you are over-reactive or hyper-conscious, no matter what you do to protect, the worst happens.
Although it wasnt much bad, I recieved appreciation over my appearance and my presentation of points after the speech,
but still, what happened was ,
I forgot 1 whole point to speak. This 1 point had 5 sub-points, and thus some thing was left behind. :(
I was representating my group, so it pinched me later.

When you are at a leader position, you have to behave well, and consider all.
If anyone in group fails, the group breaks.

I had prepared the points, listed out things, revised them, still while speaking,
when my eyes on stage rolled out, seeing some known faces, I dont know what happened to me,
but the calmness inside me was affected.
The haste and rush, all self-imposed by me to me, caused all this I suppose.
This post is to remind me, never to loose that calmness of me, always be cool buddy....... :)
and of course to share this experience with the readers, dont panic, never !!!!!!!!!!!!

My experiments with papad (Cracker)

So here I am ..... After a series of experimentation with Rotis, I tried to take on the most basic as well as most hardest test on Indian Kitchen.
If you google for papad, you will come to know, what it is, if you are not a Indian, else you already know, what I am talking about.

So it began , my mother was out of kitchen(out of home actually), lunch was already prepared, It was sunday afternoon and with the combination of
rice and daal, I thought to have some Papad.
This idea was a result of various thoughts from my mind.
I should step into kitchen,as my father & his 2 brothers, they all 3 are already a very good cook.
Even My grandfather was a good cook.
And I am not even able to go above making tea...... :(
So this time I thought to have something, to let my genes prove themselves.............
"In Rajasthan, specially in my home and all home of my relatives, we dont use any aid while roasting the papad.
On the Gas burner, it is roasted directly, and it require a skilled person to roast it all over the same.
It should be neither too much roasted, as it is all black then, nor less roasted, as it is all raw then.
Even the spots that remain, spoil the all fun."
Thinking about all these, I was in the kitchen with gas on and papad on hand.
I tried my best to roast it equally. I succeeded in roasting half of the area, Just when a terrible thing happened.
People can have burnt papads, but it is never that the whole papad gets flamed......
I have never seen something in my kitchen till now.
But it happened. ..............
The papad itself set on fire, and I knew, No fire extinguisher can save it.... ;)
I then somehow managed to put the flame off from the papad, and save some of it. :)
The whole incident made me learn a new lesson,
when it comes to kitchen, It is better to stay out !!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally Cleared SCJP

So it ended finally. It had to. The Determination was high, although the road always seemed to be more darker and darker....
Heavy work loads from office, works at home and my association with Arsha Vidya Teertha (avtjaipur.org, avtjaipur.blogspot.com) left very little time for me.

I started and ended my preparations like forgetting all the things that I studied when starting, at least 7-10 times...

Still, at last what it matters most is that you succeed and your hard work pays....

I know, I am not a born topper, and in the exam also, I didnt scored much high.
People gets 90%, 95%, 97%, I even am not in the 90s or 80s....

But it doesnt matters now. Party Time folks !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posting of Self resume Online

Link of my accounts / web pages are :
1)
Resume on Homepagenow . com

2) Google Pages Abhishek


However, both needs to be updated frequently and needs a lot of initial work here.

Preparation Links

Preparation links for scjp :

1) http://sunjavasnips.blogspot.com/
2) http://www.javaranch.com
3) http://scjptest.com/

Scjp : Preparations

Well, as promised to self that i will be back again, I am trying now for scjp 1.6

I bought scjp 6 study guide from kathy sierra and berthy bates.
The book is not yet completed, i am marking the important pages of the book, writing the page numbers containing important things, folding some of the pages, underlining the important things in pages.
The first goal is to complete the book once as soon as possible.
Then, i will be there re-reading the marked pages, practicing questions given at the end of chapters.
The third step will be to go out and taking simulators, free mock tests, etc....

I havent purchased again the voucher.
But as soon as my salary credits into account, i guess i will be purchasing the voucher.
I dont have much time now waiting.
The conditions in office are not improving, and i dont know whether one certification alone will help or not, but this is my current dream and i am on it chasing .............

A Inspiring Story about buying miracle !!!

A MIRACLE OF $1.10 (claimed to be a true story)
Tess was a precocious eight year old when she heard her Mom and Dad talking about her little brother, Andrew. All she knew was that he was very sick and they were completely out of money. They were moving to an apartment complex next month because Daddy didn't have the money for the doctor bills and our house. Only a very costly surgery could save him now and it was looking like there was no-one to loan them the money. She heard Daddy say to her tearful Mother with whispered desperation, "Only a miracle can save him now."
Tess went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its hiding place in the closet. She poured all the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for mistakes. Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door. She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing noise. Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could muster. No good.
Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on the glass counter. That did it!
"And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice. "I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said without waiting for a reply to his question.
"Well, I want to talk to you about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's really, really sick... and I want to buy a miracle."
"I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.
"His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"
"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you," the pharmacist said, softening a little. "Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the rest. Just tell me how much it costs."
The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does you brother need?"
"I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. "I just know he's really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay for it, so I want to use my money."
"How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago. "One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly. "And it's all the money I have, but I can get some more if I need to.
"Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents - the exact price of a miracle for little brothers." He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten and said, "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet your parents. Let's see if I have the kind of miracle you need."

That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specialising in neuro-surgery. The operation was completed without charge and it wasn't long until Andrew was home again and doing well. Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them to this place.
"That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I wonder how much it would have cost?"
Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost... one dollar and eleven cents ...... plus the faith of a little child.

Preparation for SCJP

After failing in the SCJP 1.5 and repeatedly confirming to myself, that i Cant clear the exam in the current scenario,
I dont know, but something inside me prompted to prepare again and to not to give up.

I know, I cant devote time in office and home, but still better dead then defeat.

So i am starting all over again, posts in blog will may be inspire me to not to waste time and whatever amount of time i get, i will try to utilize it.

Without any small or minor success, I cant proceed in life hoping for big achievements.

May victory be mine !!!!!

15 th august celebrations

Was with the friends whole day, mahesh, pradeep, tanu, rachna...
We went to nahargarh...

I thought about managing the time and thus took a step forward of making a time table...

( God.... may this be my last ....... ) :)

Now looking for a change in life.
At just 12000 per month and too much of work burden, i see troubles in working for long with the present company.

Bikaner trip

Was on bikaner trip from 28 th to 30th june 2009. It gave new zeal and motivated for the further advancements...

Meeting with cousins and all the relative's comments filled me up with +ve responses.

Attitude of peoples there, general bikaneri style, wo apnapan...

It all was awesome !!!

Nothing much... Loose time tables.

No creations, No new learnings, no fixed time table and lots of huffs & puffs.
I even forgot the mummy-papa's marriage anniversary today.
Dont know how m i living....

Fixed and too hard schedules in office, no motivation / strength to perform additional duties, and lesser money.....

Life is not going the way right now as it should be.....

Definitely not.
I need to start the changes....

Am @ times down also,dont know why.....

Words that matters.

Nowadays it just comes out of mouth,without thinking of pros n cons, i m using language, which cant be considered decent. This is affecting my character. Am nw thinking to put a brake and go slow while talking.

OS Play

With Sun's new Virtual Box, I am playing with all kind of OS from last 3 days,
and the play is not going to stop .... {:)}
Installed Fedora10, Ubuntu 8.0.4, Windows 7 , on a WInodws Vista machine,
and more to come are :
Solaris, Windows XP.

Observing the newer things.

One should never loose the calmness of mind. Huffle-puffle, haste are the attributes, which degrades your quality, and lower ur impression. Most common test for this is when any new change happens.

Back in Shimla

For a brief period of time, its in May, i am again back in shimla.
However,this time, things were not in favor, as compared to last year.

Recent Changes

Still, getting certified is one of the aim !!!
Life nowadays is at its own pace. Mother is going to shift with father soon.
Blogging after a long time, nowadays am getting online through mobile also, but not blogging from it.
May be, will continue soon. :)

Found a little less devotion in the self related to activites in ashram.
Pending from long time is work related to ashram, its site, blog and other activities.

Self-creation.5

Main behti nadi ki ek dhara,
jise to behte hi rehna hai.
Main achal himalaya ka wo hissa,
jiske iradon ko adig hi rehma hai.
Main shakti ka wo ansh jiski takat se yeh jahan chalta hai. Main nayi shuruat ka wo aadhar,
jo nit nayi khoj karta rehta hai. Main bharat ka wo yùva,
jiske aage sara jahan jhukta hai.
yuva divas pe sabhi yuvaon ko mera salam.