self creation 19

NO I dont want to wake up
why wake up if life really is a dream
No, I dont want to be a good person
why be a good and content with what u have when you can grab all that u desire
No, I dont want to go to school
why go to school when the teacher asks for homework and school is so far from home
No, I dont want to go to college
why go to classes when I can simply bunk with friends and have fun skipping the college
No, I dont want to go to office
I miss all the time cherished in my life in school and college days
No, I dont want to get married
For what is harm after all in being alone in life
No, I dont want to get old
For, I have always lived and stayed healthy and young
No, I dont want to die
For, I have aged in life but never lived life to its full !!!!!

self creation 17

I am angry over myself,
I am capable of lot of things still I am content over so little...
I am wise enough to know the difference still I do speak such rudely...
I am good enough to help but still I choose to ignore in times of need...
I am positive enough most of time but still I get depressed in times of fear...
I am brave enough to fight but still I remained silent when I should have fought...
I am magnanimous enough to every one but I never forgive myself for sins I commit ...
I am angry over myself.....

self creation draft 1

heart has no limitations,
heart has no boundaries,
thoughts are controlled ,
but how feelings can be controlled.......
mind is rational,
decisions are rational ,
but even when everything seems right rationally, how the feeling of wrong inside of me can be controlled.....
Choosing the path was my decision even knowing ways are separated now,
Choosing the correct or incorrect my decision even knowing heart will never be content on this 'correct' now,


( incomplete for now)