You are my Special one !

You are special.... So special that I dont have words to express you !
You doubt your ability....  you dont know how much capable you are for me !
You think you are alone.... you dont know I can spare all time of my life for you !
You think you are not cared.... you dont know I want you to be self dependent for this world will always be hard upon you !
You think you can fight with me.... you dont know even I argue,but deep inside the side I will choose will always be you !
You think I cant know your love for me.... you dont know I notice the every little  sacrifice that has been done by you !
You think you 'own' me.... you dont know, I have sacrificed myself to all extent to get this belief in you !
You think you can 'ignore' me.... you dont know, your silence talks more than you !
You think your problems are only for you.... you dont know, I can fight with god for you  !
You think you read it correctly, no my dear, you dont know I have chosen my special one as you !

fire inside me !

A fire has started from heart,
Ignoring the rational thinking of mind,
the fire is looking for sources to feed,
the negative air chokes a bit,
feels like i have been surrounded as bait,
but the fire keeps burning,
the desire to achieve something keeps pushing,
the world full of illusions tries to  stop fire ,
but who knows purpose of matchstick is to made fire,
dont know how much dangerous the fire is,
for the desire to succeed is always dangerous and fiery,
dont know how much it will cost to keep burning,
but then may be it is in my fate to undergo the burning,
afterall a sword is forged from fire,
then why my mind keeps checking the level of fire,
let all desires burn,
let all wishes burn,
you are a sword, you are a material,
it is your karma to burn,
why this hesitation , why this ignorance,
fire is dangerous but what danger when the world itself is set upon killing,
burn it burn it, be the fire, ignore the obstacles, be the fire,
let the emotions burn,
let the obstacles burn,
you are a sword, you are a material,
it is your karma to burn !

Self creation Number xx

लिखना तो बहुत था पर कलम नहीं चली ,
मन में सोचा तो बहुत था पर जुबान नहीं चली ,
देखा तो उसे सबने था पर किसी के दिमाग में बत्ती नहीं जली ,
जलती भी कैसे आखिर पड़ोस के किराना स्टोर पे मेन्टोस जो नहीं मिली !!!!

self creation Number xx

सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
दर्द छुपाता हूँ सीने में और ख़ुशी छलकाता हूँ चेहरे पे ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
रोता हूँ अकेले में और हँसता हूँ महफ़िल में ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
देना चाहता हूँ मैं दुनिया को पर बटोरता हूँ खाली हाथों से ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
कर्म करता नहीं हूँ और खफा रहता हूँ अपनी किस्मत से ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
शुरू करता हूँ नयी शुरुआत और जुझता हूँ आगे निकलने के लिए उसी मोड़ से ।
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