self creation 19

NO I dont want to wake up
why wake up if life really is a dream
No, I dont want to be a good person
why be a good and content with what u have when you can grab all that u desire
No, I dont want to go to school
why go to school when the teacher asks for homework and school is so far from home
No, I dont want to go to college
why go to classes when I can simply bunk with friends and have fun skipping the college
No, I dont want to go to office
I miss all the time cherished in my life in school and college days
No, I dont want to get married
For what is harm after all in being alone in life
No, I dont want to get old
For, I have always lived and stayed healthy and young
No, I dont want to die
For, I have aged in life but never lived life to its full !!!!!

self creation 17

I am angry over myself,
I am capable of lot of things still I am content over so little...
I am wise enough to know the difference still I do speak such rudely...
I am good enough to help but still I choose to ignore in times of need...
I am positive enough most of time but still I get depressed in times of fear...
I am brave enough to fight but still I remained silent when I should have fought...
I am magnanimous enough to every one but I never forgive myself for sins I commit ...
I am angry over myself.....

self creation draft 1

heart has no limitations,
heart has no boundaries,
thoughts are controlled ,
but how feelings can be controlled.......
mind is rational,
decisions are rational ,
but even when everything seems right rationally, how the feeling of wrong inside of me can be controlled.....
Choosing the path was my decision even knowing ways are separated now,
Choosing the correct or incorrect my decision even knowing heart will never be content on this 'correct' now,


( incomplete for now)

self creation 14 & 15

aise hi baithe baithe khayal aaya,
jise bhi dekha humne, usme humara hi andaz nazar aaya...
duniya me koi na nuks na nuksaan nazar aaya....
dushman bhi hume toh uski jagah sahi nazar aaya...
socha humne aaj tak na bhagwaan mila na shaitaan,
phir hume toh insaan hi alag alag roop me nazar aaya.....
socha humne na koi ameer na koi gareeb,
phir hume toh har koi sachha insaan nazar aaya...
socha humne insaan ka mizaz banta hai uski halaat aur paristhiti se,
phir hume toh halaat aur paristhiti pe bhi taras aaya....
socha humne hum dekhte hain duniya ko apni soch se,
phir hume toh ameer gareeb, aur gareeb ameer nazar aaaya....
socha humne hum toh sirf ek adne se insaan hain,
phir hume apni kalam me duniya ko badalne ka dam nazar aaya....










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aise hi baithe baithe khayal aaya,
hume apne me hi dosh najar aaya,
socha humne hum bhi kaise ajeeb hain, kitne kaabil hote hue bhi kaise kamjor hain...
phir hume kisi ne aaina dikhaya , aur sachai par se parda hataya...
socha humne hum me hai dosh bahut, hain hum kamjor bahut jo emotional ho jaate hain,
phir laga aakhir bane hain hum bhi toh haad-maans ke hi, kyun alag honge hum kisi se....
socha humne kitni galtiya karte hain hum, sudharne ki ichcha  hote hue bhi nahi badalte hum,
phir laga galtiyan toh insaan hi karta hai, ek din me koi kaise bhagwaan ban sakta hai....
socha humne kya haasil kiya humne, kyun itna waqt aur samay barbad kiya humne,
phir laga waqt toh har cheej me barbad hi hota hai, aisa kya hai is duniya me jo humesha tika rehta hai ?
socha humne agar har galti pe hume saja milti toh aaj kitna sudhar gaye hote hum,
phir laga agar har  galti pe saja milti toh shayad insaan se patthar ban gaye hote hum.....
aise hi baithe baithe khayal aaya...........

self-creations 3

छोटी सी हस्ती मेरी ,
मानो नदी मे हो कागज की एक कश्ती,
बीच पानी मे भी जैसे ढूँढ रही हो एक बस्ती !
कौन संगी कौन साथी,
कौन दोस्त और कौन नाती,
अचानक हवा चलती है और सब साथ छोड़ देते हैं,
किस से कहूं, क्या कहूं, जब अपने ही मुँह फेर लेते हैं ...

क्या करना कहाँ जाना कोई नही बताता
इस पानी में दो बूँद आंसूं भी गिरे तोह कौन है आँख उठाता

जी रहा हूँ बस ख़ुद का अस्तित्व बनाने के लिए

self creation 11 drafts...

aise hi baithe baithe khayal aaya,
jise bhi dekha humne, usme humara hi andaz nazar aaya...

sab kahin kush dikh dikh rahe they,
par main phir bhi na jaane kyun khain khoya khoya sa nazar aaya....
aise hi baithe baithe khayal aaya,


aaj phir tera sapna aaya
aaj phir waqt tham sa gaya
jaane kahan hoge tum
jaane kab miloge tum
kitni hi kalpana kari
kya hogi surat ab kya hogi fidrat ab

soch soch ke jitna tumhe yaad kiya utna hi aur yaad karne ka mann karta gaya...
mann bhi bada ajeeb hai ussi cheej ki piche padta hai jisse hashil karna mumkin nahi,

self creation 10

chalte chalte ek se do , do se karwaan ban gaya,
kahani sunate sunate dastan ban gayi....
Kya batoun Aie mere dost kya jaadu hua,
dekhte dekhte mitti sona ban gayi....

Shuru me laga ab sameep hi annntt hai
jadein majboot nahi aur thand me dhoop aur paani nahi,
kya batoun Aie mere dost kya jaadu hua,
dekhte dekhte toonth me bhi phool khil gaye....

aankh utha ke dekha toh ghumavdaar raasta tha,
chadhai aur dhalaan wala ek mushkil safar tha,
Kya bataoun Aie mere dost kya jaadu hua,
chalte chalte main pahaad ki choti pe pahunch gaya....



( In progress) 

self creation 9

koi madad nahi karta duniya me, khud hi uth chalna padta hai,
gir ke bhi dekha ,uth ke bhi dekha ,
samay ka fera to ghumta rehta hai,
kyun darta hai mere mann tu,
vishwas rakh uspe,
jiski kripa se suraj akela hi sabko jeevan deta hai....